The time will reflect that I have just finished feeding Cameron her midnight bottle and she is trying to go to sleep.
We are two days away from Carson's Surgery. Although it is simple and her eyes will not water anymore...I am getting more nervous. I am going to try to parallel two things in this entry that will barely brush up against one another. As I sit here, I am heartbroken at the idea of Carson in pain. The anesthesia scares me to death. For a few days after the surgery, there will be some blood in her tears. For a father...that is unbearable.
Tonight for the first time in my life...I understand on a new level (not even close to completely) what God must have felt watching his Son die. What I understand is that I can't understand how he allowed it to happen. I can't fathom the love. It is literally overwhelming.
Have you considered the great love that God the father has for you? Have you really stopped to think of the price that not only Jesus paid, but also his Father? I hope you have. I hope the reality of that love has changed your life. I hope it is still changing your life.
I love this new adventure called Fatherhood. God is teaching me so much. I hope you are learning too!
How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure
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Karen and I are very proud to call you our "Son-In-Law".
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